Goodbye 2011! Hello 2012!

Two years ago today I decided to make a better me. It took a few months to overcome my biggest obstacle. At this time I didn’t even know it was a problem for me. I couldn’t leave my house and walk around by myself in my own my neighborhood. Past problems and relationships left me with such overwhelming anxiety that the furthest I would walk outside my door was to the car. I walked with Lavender when she was home. We went out almost every day she was home no matter the weather. By spring I was stronger physically and more importantly mentally as I had begun working through some of my emotional baggage. I started venturing out on my own.

Fast forward to this past year, I have continued to work on myself like it was a job. (It really has been my job.) I painted more, I took Zumba classes, I danced in public, I ran a marathon, and I graduated from college. This a far cry from a person afraid to leave her home.

I am going to continue on my journey towards a better me but this year I am going to start a new journey towards better relationships. If there is one thing I learned from running a marathon is that you don’t do it alone.

I feel like I have really great relationships. I have great friends, a fantastic daughter, and a loving supportive spouse. I don’t want to take them for granted. I want them to know that I am grateful for them. I want to know them better. I know from hard work that good gets better and just when you think it is as good as gets if you just work harder it gets even better. I have feeling relationships are the same way.

I am starting with my marriage. It is great. I know that I am loved and in everything I do Lavender supports me. I am in love and enjoy spending time and doing things with her. I never thought I could have this great love. It is because of this that I want to work to make it better, deeper, more meaningful. We have talked about this but we haven’t decided exactly what kind of things we are going to do to be more purposeful in our relationship. Whatever things do I am excited. Those things that I feel work well (and are sharable) I will share with you. If you have done something, that has brought deeper meaning in your relationship than I would love to hear about it.

2011, what I have learned from you is that life just keeps getting better IF you keep working on it! 2012, I can’t wait for you!